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Yeesh, it's been a while since I posted to LJ. To the kind soul who nominated me at the Raison d'Etre Awards: thanks! I finally got a moment to look at the competition, and I can honestly say that losing is no shame in such a distinguished field. Hoot, that's some good fic over there.
I chickened out on buying the house. I love it, love it like a bride, but it's a big hulking gigantic barn, and I could only survive the first year by renting out the upper two floors -- and there's no very good chance of even doing that. The upper floors have been empty for two years. Plus the roof is shot -- it's a massive, endless TILE roof, and tiles cost as much as platinum. And the wiring's heinous. And the eaves are rotting through. And...
Anyway, I can't hack it. Can't. Can't. Can't is such an ugly word, isn't it? The down payment alone would break me, and then the place would collapse around my ears. I just don't have the guts. I've started looking at charming cottages in the foofy neighborhood across the way.
*sob*
I feel like a betrayer.
I chickened out on buying the house. I love it, love it like a bride, but it's a big hulking gigantic barn, and I could only survive the first year by renting out the upper two floors -- and there's no very good chance of even doing that. The upper floors have been empty for two years. Plus the roof is shot -- it's a massive, endless TILE roof, and tiles cost as much as platinum. And the wiring's heinous. And the eaves are rotting through. And...
Anyway, I can't hack it. Can't. Can't. Can't is such an ugly word, isn't it? The down payment alone would break me, and then the place would collapse around my ears. I just don't have the guts. I've started looking at charming cottages in the foofy neighborhood across the way.
*sob*
I feel like a betrayer.
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