jwaneeta

Okay, that's it. The TV footage is making me genuinely ill. I'm going to eat some red meat and leftover rice and go give some blood. Screw this sitting-around-in-a-daze-of-horror jazz.

ETA: Well, that took all of twenty minutes. Seriously, if you can give blood, go. There was no wait -- you'd think there would be lines out the door, but there were two donors in a room equipped to handle eight. You don't need an appointment; the Red Cross cheerfully accepts walk-ins.

Terry Ebbert, head of the city's emergency operations, warned that the slow evacuation at the Superdome had become an "incredibly explosive situation," and he bitterly complained that FEMA was not offering enough help.

"This is a national emergency. This is a national disgrace," he said. "FEMA has been here three days, yet there is no command and control. We can send massive amounts of aid to tsunami victims, but we can't bail out the city of New Orleans."

Maybe I'll go see a movie. Can't force myself to stop watching the news if I stay home -- it's a compulsion. And I'm going to go dinky-dau if I don't knock it off. Sigh.

My blundering, inarticulate attempt to muse about God's nature and mystery re the New Orleans catastrophe enraged some people I really like and respect, and I feel like shit about it. Everyone is feeling horrible about the disaster, and I deeply regret adding in any way to the negativity.

I honestly thought it was a optimistic thought, which shows how utterly clueless I am, and ... never mind, I'll just make it worse. There's no sense in trying to clarify what I think, because I clearly suck at that. The infuriating opinion has been deleted and replaced with an apology, and this is another. Things are bad enough.

On the disaster front, I'm now at the stage where I'm forced to wonder if the administration wants those people to die. That's how furious and paranoid I've become. Does FEMA consider them expendable? Or is the government sort of willing to save them, as long as it doesn't cost too much? Why else the atrocious delay? Was FEMA shopping around for the best deal on buses? The cheapest contractor? It's not like the victims are on the other side of the world, they're in freaking Louisiana, and we have a lot of motherfucking buses in this country. Something stinks, and FEMA heads should roll.

Oh, God. I'm going to take a sedative and watch Spiderman. I promise that if I ever rise on the stepping stones of my dead, mortified, crimson-faced LJ self, I'll post something positive. Pinky swear.